Creative gluttony

I want to be more creative, but I'm not artistically creative. I can't knit, or crochet, or sew, or paint, or sing (you get the idea) My whole family is creative in that way! But what I really want to be is like the youtube stars I watch daily. I'm torn, part of me says that they get there because they go out in life and experience it and that's why they have things to talk about. The other part of me laughs at that because they are on a schedule and put out videos weekly! And if there is one thing blimey cow has taught me it's that making videos takes a ton of effort.

So, I was doing good there for a week or so, I was watching new videos and reading books, I had opinions and new thoughts but the problem is I don't take the time to capture these things, I just sit there and think them to myself or passionately spew them to Emily and then forget them as soon as they're outside of me. She says I need to record myself so I can remember. That's an idea. But I'm uncomfortable with talking to myself. I'm so incredibly privet even with myself! GEEZ! Relax a little Soph.

The gluttony part comes in now, I've been over dosing on youtube videos. I just sit and watch for hours. It's so great to see these people sharing themselves, giving ideas, trying to explain things, but if I'm just sitting there taking it in and not doing anything with it, what good is it? Not all youtubers create their videos to help people out (Every time I'm reminded of this though I get kind of disgusted with the stupidity of some channels) but those who do want their subscribers to go out there and do something! When I make the rare video it's because I want to share an experience with people and maybe help them avoid my mistakes or understand something they are going through. Anyhow, the overdosing has been done all in the name of exposing myself to creativity and therefore make me better. All it's done is make me sit at my computer for hours watching videos when I could be doing something awesome or at least reading something awesome!

Okay, so that's all for now.
If you're interested in some of my favorite Youtubers please take the time to check out some of these people!
Mike Falzone
Charlie McDonnell
Phil Lester
and last but not least Tessa!
I have a ton more favorites but these youtubers specifically are who I want to be like? I really like their style! Okay, the end.